Not so fast..

I went to the university! I presented myself at the examination room! Yey! And they had changed the date to next friday! Yey?

My first reaction was relief: one more week to read, the thing I always dream of on exam day. And then I realized it would mean one more week in biofisica-land. :(

But then I thought: Hey! This will give me another opportunity to battle my fear! Cool!

And then I went home and had a meltdown of anger and grief over the Breakup. Just to round off the day with snot and tears.

Things that brightened the day:
- The Professor said she is planning to go lightly on the correction of the exams.
- I bought cool shimmery eyeshadow
- I found some great point shoes. Please Godess of The Pointshoe: let them be great!
- I had a piece of chocolate cake
- There is also a bar of Lindt Dark shocolate with cherry and chile
- 1/2 hour of Tom and Jerry on telly

Exam

Oh, boy oboyoboy...

I have an exam tomorrow. And I am not freaking out. This is just so amazing, that I am smiling thinking about it. I feel, as I always do, that I know nuffin' but I have finally learned to not give any importance to that perception.

TFT is my friend! It is so great to have something to DO when the anxiety starts fluttering. So I tap on hands and face and nevermind how it looks to others, most of them are so inside their own exam-stressed heads they do not notice anyway. ;)

So I did one already in january, and now I have this one tomorrow, and then: no exams for months. Friday 1230 I will be Free!

My cat

That is a picture of my cat on the right. While searching for a picture of my cat I came across a file of photos from this summer, with my now ex. (Jepp, that is part of the Crap that has been happening..)
The first urge is to delete. Every photo and memory from the last 4-5 years, because apparently that is how long I lived with my ex, and he did not love me. It hurts to look at his smiling face, knowing what I know now.

But I will not delete those years. They are part of who I am today, and little by little they will stop hurting.

Anyways, the reason why I was searching for a picture of Freya was to tell you all that for a inndoor cat she surly manage to hurt herself...

Visits to the vet:
- strained muscles in the back and tail, while struggeling to get up on a table
- hairloss on neck that was a symptom of dermatitis
- infected butt-glands
- loss of skin on leg (no idea why)
- having baths for dermatitis
- caught a cold

This is all since november.

The good thing is, she does not seem to have any discomfort as she lives as she has always done.
And in my new home (for some months) there are birds in the Patio. So she is in heaven, sitting at the window, twiching.