Oh, boy oboyoboy...
I have an exam tomorrow. And I am not freaking out. This is just so amazing, that I am smiling thinking about it. I feel, as I always do, that I know nuffin' but I have finally learned to not give any importance to that perception.
TFT is my friend! It is so great to have something to DO when the anxiety starts fluttering. So I tap on hands and face and nevermind how it looks to others, most of them are so inside their own exam-stressed heads they do not notice anyway. ;)
So I did one already in january, and now I have this one tomorrow, and then: no exams for months. Friday 1230 I will be Free!
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Thursday, 24 February 2011
Thursday, 11 November 2010
Life's a peace of sh*t, when you look at it...
Always look on the bright side of life! This has been a few months of crapola all over the place. I freaked out completely on exams in September so helllooo complications! Tomorrow I will have my first session of TankeFeltTerapi after a recomendation from a coworker. I so hope it will give me some tools, but I have not read about the theories behind the therapy as I get frustrated with the general vagueness of alternative therapy explanations. (I get the same feeling whenever I encounter it in school-medicine also. ) But then the most important part is that the therapeut believes that it will work, so I have hopes.
I bumped the car. That is, someone bumped into me but it was I who was driving wrong. Would not have happened had I bothered to actually look at the indications in the lane instead of driving as "everyone else".
And then there are other shitty things I will not discuss on the net, that has brought every little insecurity I have about myself out in the open and reduces me to a sobbering mess at the smallest provocation. That will prove intresting tomorrow at the tft session. I'll probably spend the hour and half crying...In a way it is good, because having my insecurities out there means I can confront them. But it leaves me without anything to give at work(home for the elderly), emotionally. And I am operating on a very short fuse. Me, who is normally so patient (except with waiting for amazon parcels..)had to leave a room to avoid saying some really nasty things to a patient.
I bumped the car. That is, someone bumped into me but it was I who was driving wrong. Would not have happened had I bothered to actually look at the indications in the lane instead of driving as "everyone else".
And then there are other shitty things I will not discuss on the net, that has brought every little insecurity I have about myself out in the open and reduces me to a sobbering mess at the smallest provocation. That will prove intresting tomorrow at the tft session. I'll probably spend the hour and half crying...In a way it is good, because having my insecurities out there means I can confront them. But it leaves me without anything to give at work(home for the elderly), emotionally. And I am operating on a very short fuse. Me, who is normally so patient (except with waiting for amazon parcels..)had to leave a room to avoid saying some really nasty things to a patient.
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