Life's a peace of sh*t, when you look at it...

Always look on the bright side of life! This has been a few months of crapola all over the place. I freaked out completely on exams in September so helllooo complications! Tomorrow I will have my first session of TankeFeltTerapi after a recomendation from a coworker. I so hope it will give me some tools, but I have not read about the theories behind the therapy as I get frustrated with the general vagueness of alternative therapy explanations. (I get the same feeling whenever I encounter it in school-medicine also. ) But then the most important part is that the therapeut believes that it will work, so I have hopes.

I bumped the car. That is, someone bumped into me but it was I who was driving wrong. Would not have happened had I bothered to actually look at the indications in the lane instead of driving as "everyone else".

And then there are other shitty things I will not discuss on the net, that has brought every little insecurity I have about myself out in the open and reduces me to a sobbering mess at the smallest provocation. That will prove intresting tomorrow at the tft session. I'll probably spend the hour and half crying...In a way it is good, because having my insecurities out there means I can confront them. But it leaves me without anything to give at work(home for the elderly), emotionally. And I am operating on a very short fuse. Me, who is normally so patient (except with waiting for amazon parcels..)had to leave a room to avoid saying some really nasty things to a patient.

It is one of those days

Another card out of order. It is the third in one year, and this last time I have tried to only use atm machines (or holes in the wall. I love that expression)and not the shops, and yet it has only laster half a year. And dinner is experimental, and too much so, since it is turning out a bit crap. and slow. urkh. These things in themeselves is not so bad, but I woke up this morning not really feeling up to facing the world. Must be my hibernating gland kicking into action. Then anything more ardous than going to the loo is percievet as the End of the World!